You deserve to not have anything good!
You are such a loser that even you know you do not deserve to cum and have it feel amazing, the way an orgasm should. No, your orgasm will be completely ruined, which is exactly what you deserve! You will stroke to the fact that it will be ruined. You must be so turned on and craving to just fucking explode! When you finally do cum, via countdown, you will not allow it to feel good. You will punish yourself for cumming.